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you know you’ve been hurt before, one fucking fine day you just decided to trust someone so much that they broke you without you seeing it coming. you thought you will never heal you thought you will forever live with this kind of fucking pain, you thought this person will always be forever staying in your heart.

and one fucking day you woke up not feeling that kind of pain

not feeling broken

you don’t think this person fill your heart anymore

ou maybe someone else replace their special place in your fucking tiny heart

so you decided once again that someone lovely who made your days good made you laugh and made you feel good about yourself again could be your another love

so you decided you’re in love with this lovely humanbeing

and then waitttt you don’t wanna be hurt ever again, you think about every possible ways on not being hurt ever again, you don’t fucking care If someone actually will get hurt/

and yea this lovely human being ended up getting hurt

you ended up feeling guilty but at ease knowing you don’t feel hurt

and yea here comes this other person you chose because you knew, you swore to yourself, you just fucking sure this person will never hurt you because you won’t love him enough to give him the power to fucking hurt you.

you built your fences, hold your feelings down, do things so he won’t ever get inside you like the people before, so you won’t need to hurt this person just because you don’t wanna get hurt or you won’t ever be hurt because you don’t love this person enough to be hurt. 

and this one fucking person just wanted your fences to be down, just wanted to be inside of you, just wanted to see your fucking cracks, he wanted them enough so you let him took a peek.

and then your heart is full by this one fucking human being who wanted to take a peek, and you know this time you are fucked. knowing that you have failed to stop yourself from falling in love. and then this time you won’t do shit to stop yourself from being hurt.

because you actually realize,

no matter how much you love this person

and how much he will hurt you

and how much the pain he will cause

and how much you don’t want to feel this fucking kind of feeling,

you will fucking heal.

oknope:

do you ever think how bitchy and annoying you really are and wonder how anyone ever tolerates you